Right now, right now it is 23:05 pm on Friday 04/5/19 and I just saw r/girlsgonewired’s post about starting 100 days of code! I’ve been feeling a little discouraged, so maybe this is just the motivation I need.
Code on peeps,
This was written on 03-25-19 @ 11pm-ish
As I mentioned to the IE-SD Slack chat, I *finally* got back to the project page. I got there years ago, and made it on my teenage crush Brandon Boyd. That embarrassing little nugget lives on codepen.io.
But I experienced some legit panic when I looked at the project on Sunday, cuz real talk… I forgot ALL OF THE BASICS. It’s been so long since I’ve even had to set up a page!!
There’s a part of me that was going to start reaching out to people but someone in the FCC Slack chat posted this and it made me pause for a bit because I’ve been dealing with this… funk a lot lately.
Lately, I’ve been having a hard time with being wrong– or uninformed or not being able to make good inferences, or whatever. Since leaving Chicago, I’ve had to learn two jobs —at the same time–that have very precise directions. There are usually immediate consequences involved when you don’t follow the directions at work and one way or another the customer suffers because they’re not being serviced accurately and efficiently. I’ve had both of these jobs for a year now so there’s been a good deal of note taking, workflow forming, and flat out crying when I feel dumb. To be honest, you’d think that I would be better at dealing with these feelings, but really, I’m not. It’s taken a lot of tools to reign in runaway emotions and straight up panic attacks to be where I’m at right now.
So after some breathing and talking out loud about the things I forgot, I told my husband that this is likely going to keep happening. At some point in my development career, someone is going to ask me to do something that I’ve done before, but cannot remember. The better I get at understanding how to code, the more I’ll need to learn how to dig around for solutions.
So that’s what I did. I went on W3school and one by one knocked out the *minimum* requirements for the tribute project. Just going one by one until the test script climbed up and read 10/10– and YAY, it fucking worked.
I’m going to call it a night. Tomorrow, I can focus on making it pretty.
Anyone who’s had to use “starting over” as a title knows how weird it feels to admit that things did not go as planned or promised.
At this present moment, I am living in California. After many years in Chicago, IL, we moved to be closer to my family since my mom is going through some health issues. My father passed away almost 10 years ago. At the time he was in NYC while I was in Miami, FL so, moving to California just in case my mom’s health started to tank felt like the right thing to do. But also, for as much as I love, live, and dream Chicago, it’s always felt temporary because of the cost of housing and terrible winters. In my 20’s I thought that at some point in my 30’s my husband, dog, and I would pack up our stuff and move elsewhere– I just didn’t realize that that would take place between age 30 and 31…but I digress…
Anyway. Moving means starting over. At the moment I work two jobs. Yes! With a BA, you too can have as many (entry level) jobs as you want! One of the companies I work for really excites me because it’s a managed IT services firm. This was intentional since I love working in smart environments. However, I’m a paper pusher. Again. And I’m not really sure what to do about it. At my last job, I was surrounded by new product development professionals. It was easy to say that I wasn’t going to go back to school to figure out if I’m good at mechanical engineering or industrial design. As far as I’m concerned, those ships have more or less sailed. But I’ve been in Cali for over 6 months so I’m starting to feel the itch to get back into development. California is supposed to be the promised land of tech opportunities, so who’s to say that I can’t jump on that ship and rise up with the tide?
This cross-country move isn’t my first rodeo, but I’m hella sick of starting over without having a well-defined career. I want to be able to have well-paying work wherever I go. In fact, I hope that one day, I have a job that allows me to work from home (#themillenialdream), save for retirement, and live without debt. For me, these are my big dreams.
So. I’ve started getting back into the FreeCodeCamp tutorials and I’m doing pretty well at chugging through a few lessons every night. We’ll see how this run plays out.